I'm never been a private person, though I really try to be. I'd be lying to myself if I said I'm not an emotional being. The truth is I won't be able to sleep until I express what has been happening with me lately. Due to the result of recent events I am now writing this.
About a year ago, I hit a really rough patch. It was my first year as an official small business owner. I was on my own trying to figure everything out. From licensing, to budgeting, to contracts and everything in between. Unfortunately I made more poor decisions than wise ones and a year later I'm still dealing with some of the mistakes I made. It's definitely one of those things that feel they will haunt you forever, and it definitely felt like it was starting to define my entire life. It got to the point where I felt incapable of being an entrepreneur and succeed as a wedding photographer. I was completely down on myself and felt quiet literally like a failure. I felt extremely anxious and out of control. I take a lot of pride in my work, and when things don't go the way they're supposed to I become very agitated and angry with myself.
t's taking a long time for me to breathe and tell myself that it's going to be okay, and that I will get past this. I am so glad I didn't give up. I still have so much to learn, and more mistakes to make. Though I wish many things had happened differently I can't denied that I do feel they happened the way they did for a reason. I'm a believer of the universe, and the force it contains. The situation I was in completely shifted my mentally as a business owner and as a human being. It gave a me strength I wouldn't had gained otherwise.
Those who know me understand that my intentions are never bad. In fact whatever the situation is, I always strive to go out of my way to fix things and provide the best service possible.
I really want to take this time to thank all my clients that believe in me. Those who gave me the chance to prove my talent, and allowed me to get to know you. You guys shaped me. You have guys have no idea how much you mean to me, and how often I think of every single one of you. I've been so blessed, and I can't believe how much love I am surrounded by.
If you are a young entrepreneur I encourage you to not give up. Face those obstacles, acknowledge your fears, accept every feeling of anxiety and doubt and still go out and do it! It get's better. With that said, I want you all lovely people to remember that it is true that each individual has the right to choose the way they want to express themselves, but please, let's remember to be kind. With this out of my chest, I will now move on and continue to believe in myself.